Six months from today, I become someone's wife. I gain a husband, and another family.
If there is anything that Marriage Prep has re-enforced, it's the magnitude of what I am preparing to do. I'm about to get married, to create a new family. I'm not just starting a new page, or a new chapter - I'm starting a completely new book.
I've been engaged for over 15 months, now, so I'm no spring chicken in the engagement scene. In many ways, this has been a challenge, to put it mildly. I'll be honest - we are eager to live together, to start our lives together, and yes - just about ready to be finished with wedding planning.
But I'm not complaining. I'm only going to be engaged once in my whole life, and I am trying to focus on this, to really understand what I'm doing - what we're doing - and to enjoy the process. To enjoy the anticipation of most beautiful dress I've ever seen, and to ignore the fact that it costs more than a month's rent. But it is easy to get wrapped up in it all: chicken or beef? videographer or photographer? That stuff is important, sure, and you want it to be perfect, but it pales to what is really important.
And what's really important, to me, is that on May 29th and May 30th and every day thereafter, I get to spend my life with him.
Even though I'm very prepared, very excited, and very deliberate in my decision, there are certainly things that I am more excited about than others. Every week, from now until the wedding, I will be highlighting what I'm nervous about, excited for, or planning on. Let's call it Marriage Monday's, shall we? (C'mon, every blog needs some cheese-y labels, right?)
And in the meantime - well, I am dwelling in the details. And I am not complaining one bit.